Wednesday, 15 March 2006

(unhappy face here)

Depression isn't all it's cracked up to be. You know with so many people being depressed and on zoloft these days, you'd think it must be so great. Or at least so cool. Here's a news flash: that's so not true.

Alright, I'm not posting anything because I'm not really doing anything. Personal care. Being driven crazy by well meaning people in denial and yelling at them. But not much else.

I did get a nice surprise though, in the form of my self portrait quilt being published by Quilting Arts (in the spring issue). I'm less psyched about that than I was when I discovered my piece had been chosen to tour. Most of the people I know are more excited than I am about it.
So I thought maybe I'm a little out of sorts over everything that is happening, and that's been the state of my life for the last while. I don't really feel like doing much and I'll just have to wait until I feel better. I work too much on whims and fancies. Ah well, that's what being temperamental is all about.

I did some decos the other day and that improved my mood a little. So once the family is no longer taking over my house like a giant speading fungus of destruction, maybe I will get to work on Athanasius. I have decided how he will look and just need to get around to the actual work. I also am starting work on CIP again, after a fairly long hiatus in the project. I am working on Augustine now. It's slow going, but I still intend to finish.

Sometimes things just take a little longer.


marc said...

I thought fits of depression were somewhat of a requirement for artists?

Char said...

Maybe, I know I do have a somewhat non even, easy-going temperament. We all have a few bi-polar like tendancies in my family.

But it's harder to be depressed when you actually have a reason to be!
When I wrote the post my dad had begun to become somewhat delusional and hard to care for. He is here but HE is not here, if that makes sense. We have since made the decision put him in the hospital to die.
Yeah I know I'm bad whining about myself in all that, but this is the only place I do it. :)

marc said...

Sorry to hear about your Dad, that's tough to deal with. My Dad died of Leukemia a few years back and he lost some of his memory and stuff after Chemo. Death is ugly, the ultimate expresion/result of our rebellion from God. Thanks goodness (God) there's Life again for those who are in Christ Jesus!